Why My Anxiety Is Through The Roof
Ok, it’s time to be honest and raw here.
This week is kicking my butt. Hard. I’m struggling to push past my anxiety to accomplish…well, anything. That’s the thing with Anxiety; you can have great days and weeks, even months, and then BAM!, you’re anxious, can’t sleep, stressing about everything, and struggling to make it through the day. That’s depressing as hell.
(Did I mention that my depression, and the depression of so many others, stems directly from anxiety?)
This week has been a trial, for sure. While my anxiety is generalized and seems to come from and be aggravated or triggered by any number of things, there are a few things making it worse this week.
Increased Work Pressure
The CEO/my boss is out of town (on a MUCH needed vacation!), leaving each of us with slightly increased workloads. Not a big deal usually, but the change in dynamic in the office has me seriously on edge. There’s a pressure to perform that is different than when he is here, and I feel like I’m forced to rely on a few other people in the office to accomplish certain tasks, leaving me dependent on their performance to succeed myself.
Stressed Husband Is Stressed
I mean, he’s usually at least a LITTLE stressed, but the last 2-3 weeks takes the cake, especially this week. He’s majorly overloaded already, carrying the workload of several people and working late into the evening. With the CEO gone, he’s got more additional workload than the rest of us on his plate, and a responsibility on his shoulders that no one else carries. To top it off, one of the members of his team had to take an unplanned trip due to a family emergency, placing yet another full load of work on my husband’s shoulders.
This means working late in to the evening every night, in to the office early every morning, and work the entire weekend. It’s necessary, and as he says, “It’s a sprint”, but it still sucks. It’s hard for me schedule-wise, as it becomes difficult to plan meals and commute, and I also end up staying late at the office. It’s also incredibly difficult for me as his wife. I see the incredible stress he is under, I see it affecting his mood and his health, and I just want to FIX. I want to take it away, give him rest, and let him BREATHE. But I can’t. This is probably one of the greatest triggers for my anxiety, and it’s in full-force right now.
POLITICS
tw: sexual assault
Ok, bear with me here. I don’t think anyone needs to agree with my stance on certain political things to also experience anxiety from the political climate and current political issues. So, if we don’t see eye-to-eye on some of the specifics, let’s agree to disagree, yeah?
I’m not a fan of the current (2018) administration, and that runs fairly deep over several issues. However, there is something going on right now that is distressing, depressing, and triggering (you thought I was going for alliteration there, didn’t you?), and millions of women around the country, and likely the world, are grappling with it.
I’m sure you’re familiar with the Kavanaugh nomination, and by the time you read this, we may already know if he’s confirmed or not. He has been credibly accused of sexual assault by at least two women at this point, one of whom testified recently at his confirmation hearing and ultimately prompted an FBI investigation. I don’t want to talk about the hearing, the investigation, or the nomination.
I do want to talk about society’s reaction to a woman coming forward about a sexual assault she experienced decades ago.
This brave woman, Dr. Ford, has been ridiculed, mocked, threatened (seriously, death threats!!), disbelieved, scoffed at, and dismissed. She relived her own hell and what was probably the worst day of her life in a brave testimony, and was picked apart by men (and some women) who didn’t give a sh*! about her or her experience. She was questioned as to why she didn’t report it earlier, especially “if it was that bad” (thank you, POTUS). Her treatment at the hands of our supposed representatives and leaders was absolutely disgraceful and horrific.
As a survivor of sexual assault myself, I was horrified. What if my family or the police had responded that way to me when I reported my abuse? The lasting emotional, mental, and even physical damage was terrible enough as it was, and still disrupts my life at regular intervals even now; I can’t even imagine if I was met with the type of response Dr. Ford was met with. I was extremely fortunate to have a loving and believing family to support me, and my case was handled with care by investigators and prosecutors. Even so, other people I opened up to were not so kind or believing, and I experienced a small amount of what Dr. Ford has gone through in this ordeal.
I know that there are millions of women everywhere who are reliving their own personal horror through this; I know I am. And I think of all the women who have yet to come forward, and perhaps never will now. I think about the women years from now who will be sexually assaulted and decide to never tell a soul because of what they saw these last few weeks. And it tears at my heart. I literally do not know how to handle this. I am angry, frightened, hurt, frustrated, terrified, and so, so sad.
My Weight Loss Journey
Ugh. Seriously. This is HARD work, and my anxiety is already so wrapped up in it. This week has made it incredibly difficult to maintain the good habits I’m building and the consistency I need to have to succeed. I’ve held on to my workouts with a death grip, but the rest… My snack choices have been questionable, I’ve splurged more than I should on greasy foods, and I BLEEWWWWW my calorie budget more than once this week.
I know, I know, “Be gentle with yourself!” Well, easier said than done. I have GOALS, and going backward is not getting me any closer to them. I worry constantly that if I slow down, I’ll stop and eventually revert, and never accomplish my weight loss goals.
As I mentioned earlier, there are good times; anxiety isn’t always this heavy weight that constantly has me on edge and keeps me up at night. This is just a hard week, or two or three. It will get better, and it will also get worse sometimes. I know and understand and anticipate that cycle, and while it really sucks, knowing what the cycle looks like helps get me through it. So does my wonderful husband, and other supportive people in my life.
If you are struggling with anxiety, don’t feel like you have to face that struggle all on your own; there are people who will face it with you, whether that’s family, friends, or professional help (WORTH IT). Don’t be afraid to ask for help!
What things are triggering your anxiety right now? Do you have questions for me? Leave a comment!
7,334 thoughts on “Why My Anxiety Is Through The Roof”
Wow it really does sound like you have a lot on your mind hon. I’m so sorry, but I understand I’ve been there.
my trip away from the media was very enlightening!!! i didn’t realize how how much it stayed with me thru out the day
�grendigimiz iyi oldu 🙂
takip�i yagiyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 tane geldi
Oha ??
I already guessed
If there is one for Instagram, someone tell me right away ??
I’m in shock after shock, we don’t know what’s going on ??
do you have this on instagram?
thanks??
Sevdigim �ocugu stalkladigimi saniyordum megersem oda beni stalkliyormus hemen a�iliyorum 🙂
he is seriously working ??
really gives thank you??
Organik kullanicilar olunca g�zel oluyor b�yle??
I Learned My Secret Admirers
tam da tahmin ettigim kisileri g�rd�m, uygulama kesinlikle ger�ek ??
�ay veya Kahve istermisiniz Stalkerlar?
baya iyi bir uygulama olmus bu kadarini beklemiyordum ??
good luck??
Neegggggggggggggg
takip�ilerim geldi tesekk�rler??
I went crazy when I saw my stalkers
oh ??
everyone has been a slap but this man sent it halal well??
thanks??
15 kisi beni engellemis, hepinizi gördüm arkadaslar ??
I don’t know who is the admin but congratulations came after 3 hours my follower
4 saat sonra 3000 takipçi geldi??
nasil ya nasill
Tahmin etmistim zaten
thanks??
Very nice application
Benim 1 saat sonra geldi türk aktif hemde
Stalkerlarimi Ögredim
I don’t know who the admin is but congrats
umarim kesintisiz hergün çalisir
Takipçiler türk bilginize??
Uygulamayi yapanin ellerine saglik sorunsuz çalisiyoo ????
A total of 15 people have blocked me, 3 people have been stalking me for a long time.
siteye giris yaptiktan sonra çikanlarmi ?
takipçi yagiyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 tane geldi
Instantly Uploaded I’m here now??
I already guessed
I went crazy when I saw my stalkers
Organik kullanicilar olunca güzel oluyor böyle??
Health to the hands of the person who made the application, it works smoothly ????
bugün de gizli hayranlarimizi ögrendik…
I’m going crazy now when I see it ????
it’s an excellent app ??
twitter profilime bakanlari gördüm sonunda
what to say to ex girlfriend
Organik kullanicilar olunca güzel oluyor böyle??
ise yarayacagini düsünmüyodum ama girince gerçekten sok oldum ??
It’s really amazing what’s up 🙂
Neegggggggggggggg
incoming followers do it on rt and fav??
oh ??
Organik kullanicilar olunca güzel oluyor böyle??
The data is real I guess because I guessed it turned out
I already guessed
Aninda Yüklendi artik burdayim??
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
What if
It’s really amazing what’s up 🙂
Seeing my ex is kind of like ??
good to know that ??
Very nice application
Very nice application
kimleri görüyorum kimleri
If this data is real, I am shocked.
It’s nice when there are organic users ??
gelen takipçiler rt ve fav’da yapiyor??
suan çildiriyorum gördükçe ????
Veriler sanirim gerçek çünki tahmin ettigim çikti
If there is one for Instagram, someone tell me right away ??
sonunda teknoloji ilerledi de bunu da yaptilar ??
ohaaaa ??????
I never thought I would see people who viewed my profile on twitter 🙂
Admin kim bilmiyorum ama tebrikler 3 saat sonra geldi benim takipçim
An Excellent App indeed
10 dk sonra geldi takipçilerim tesekkür ederim
Stalkerlarimi Görünce çilgina döndüm
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
dude, can someone follow me for 2 years?
takipçilerim geldi tesekkürler??
good to know that ??
Gizli Hayranlarimi Ögrenmis oldum
bu uygulamayi kim yaptiysa ellerine saglik ????????????
eski sevgiliye ne denmeli 🙂
I’m going crazy now when I see it ????
really gives thank you??
Gerçekten Mükemmel Bir Uygulama Elinize Saglik
You’ve been following for 2 years, at least write it down, you’re unscrupulous ????
wow they finally did that too bee ??
I gained followers with thank you??
ohaaaa ??????
Asla beklemedigim 1-2 kisiyi görünce sok geçirdim ??
It’s nice when there are organic users ??
Seeing my ex is kind of like ??
Organik kullanicilar olunca güzel oluyor böyle??
I gained followers with thank you??
Aninda Yüklendi artik burdayim??
ulan herkes tokatçi olmus ama bu adam gönderdi helal valla??
I already guessed
It’s really amazing what’s up 🙂
who do i see
ooo who’s who i’m in awe ??
how or how
If there is one for Instagram, someone tell me right away ??
Guys, it doesn’t matter when you come, I think the time doesn’t matter, does it come after you log in to the site, never mind the rest.
Saç ekimi tedavisi genellikle erkek tipi saç dökülmesi olarak tanımlanan, androgenetik alopesi sorununa sahip kişiler için uygulanmaktadır. https://bit.ly/sac-ekimi-fiyatlari-2021
Eski sevgilimi görmek biraz sey sanki ??
good to know that ??
ulan 2 yildir takip edermi bir insan
I don’t understand why you are stalking me but it’s good to know ??
Tahmin etmistim zaten
Friends, the app is really working, I’m in shock right now??
sonunda teknoloji ilerledi de bunu da yaptilar ??
Good luck and congratulationsrr ??????
Yorumlara göre girdim ve geldi takipçiler tesekkürler ??
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
my followers have arrived thank you??
good luck??
bunu ögrendigim çok iyi oldu ??
Eski sevgilimi görmek biraz sey sanki ??
An Excellent App indeed
Admin kim bilmiyorum ama tebrikler 3 saat sonra geldi benim takipçim
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
I went crazy when I saw my stalkers
I thought I was stalking the boy I love, but it turned out that the room was stalking me, I open immediately 🙂
An Excellent App indeed
good luck??
oooo kimler kimler var hayretler içerisindeyimm??
oh ??
Akromegalie Symptone, Akromegalie definition
Saç ekimi, saç ekimi fiyatları, saç ekimi nedir
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
mükemmel bir uygulama olmus cidden ??
Retweet ve Favori sanirim daha hizli geliyor??
gerçekten veriyor tesekkür ederim??
Oh, 1000 Followers came after 1 hour ??
I’m in shock after shock, we don’t know what’s going on ??
Oha ??
The site is successful, I think it’s coming late, followers??
An Excellent App indeed
Would you like tea or coffee, Stalkers?
finally technology has advanced and they did it too ??
Bu çikan veriler gerçekse ben sokk
Seeing my ex is kind of like ??
Çay veya Kahve istermisiniz Stalkerlar?
Friends, I logged into this site yesterday, but my followers came after 12 hours, not 2 or 3 hours, I guess everyone is different??
I’m in shock after shock, we don’t know what’s going on ??
site basarili bence geçte olsa geliyor takipçiler??
Today we learned about our secret admirers…
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
If this data is real, I am shocked.
Uygulamayi yapanin ellerine saglik sorunsuz çalisiyoo ????
rain of followersyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 arrived
Let’s give a hug as those who see your profile ????
Instantly Uploaded I’m here now??
Would you like tea or coffee, Stalkers?
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
Organik kullanicilar olunca güzel oluyor böyle??
Arkadaslar bu siteye dün giris yaptim ama 2 3 saat degil benim takipçilerim 12 saat sonra geldi sanirim herkes farkli??
Takipçiler türk bilginize??
It’s nice when there are organic users ??
walk, admin, to God, the sacrifice 1450 came to me too ??
lan ciddi ciddi çalisiyorr ??
sicak sohbet hatti bayanlari ile gorus
favoribahis guncel adres
thank you sex hattı
10 dk sonra geldi takipçilerim tesekkür ederim
Tahmin etmistim zaten
Oha 1 saat geçtikten sonra 1000 Takipçi geldi ??
stalkers, let’s sit down and talk why me ??
15 kisi beni engellemis, hepinizi gördüm arkadaslar ??
lan ciddi ciddi çalisiyorr ??
Who exits after logging in to the site?
thank you favoribahis
Toplam 15 kisi engellemis beni 3 kisi bayadir stalkliyor
oooo kimler kimler var hayretler içerisindeyimm??
Gerçekten Mükemmel Bir Uygulama Elinize Saglik
Retweet ve Favori sanirim daha hizli geliyor??
Aninda Yüklendi artik burdayim??
Arrived 10 minutes later my followers thank you
instagram içinde olani varmi bunun ?
arkadaslar yorumlara bakip girdim 2 saat sonra geldi benimkisi??
What if
ise yarayacagini düsünmüyodum ama girince gerçekten sok oldum ??
Admin kim bilmiyorum ama tebrikler 3 saat sonra geldi benim takipçim
Stalkerlarimi Ögredim
arkadaslar yorumlara bakip girdim 2 saat sonra geldi benimkisi??
It’s really amazing what’s up 🙂
Benim 1 saat sonra geldi türk aktif hemde
10 dk sonra geldi takipçilerim tesekkür ederim
I don’t know who the admin is but congrats
instagram içinde olani varmi bunun ?
baya iyi bir uygulama olmus bu kadarini beklemiyordum ??
Sol Kürek kemiği ağrısı, sırtın sol üst kısmında meydana gelmektedir.
hi instaevreni
Followers for your Turkish information??
Gerçekten inanilmaz ya neler var neler 🙂
Seeing my ex is kind of like ??
I don’t understand why you stalk me
suan çildiriyorum gördükçe ????
ohaaaa ??????
stalkers, let’s sit down and talk why me ??
The site is successful, I think it’s coming late, followers??
ulan herkes tokatçi olmus ama bu adam gönderdi helal valla??
Health to the hands of the person who made the application, it works smoothly ????
really gives thank you??
sok üstüne sok yasiyorum, neler varmis da haberimiz yokmus ??
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
Toplam 15 kisi engellemis beni 3 kisi bayadir stalkliyor
eski sevgiliye ne denmeli 🙂
Kimleri Görüyorum Kimleri
stalkers, let’s sit down and talk why me ??
really gives thank you??
vay anasini sonunda bunu da yaptilar bee ??
15 kisi beni engellemis, hepinizi gördüm arkadaslar ??
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
twitter profilime bakanlari gördüm sonunda
I didn’t think it would work but I was really shocked when it came in ??
Oha ??
Oha ??
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
It’s working for your information??
Gerçekten Mükemmel Bir Uygulama Elinize Saglik
incoming followers do it on rt and fav??
oh ??
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
I Learned My Stalkers
Neegggggggggggggg
Çay veya Kahve istermisiniz Stalkerlar?
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
beni neden stalkliyorsunuz anlamis degilim ama ögrendigim iyi oldu ??
It’s working for your information??
takipçi yagiyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 tane geldi
I finally saw those who viewed my twitter profile
I already guessed
Retweet ve Favori sanirim daha hizli geliyor??
Kimleerr kimleri stalkliyormus megersemmm ??
Sevdigim çocugu stalkliyordum umarim beni görmez ??????
my followers have arrived thank you??
takipçi yagiyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 tane geldi
bugün de gizli hayranlarimizi ögrendik…
Çok Güzel bir uygulama
site basarili bence geçte olsa geliyor takipçiler??
stalkers, let’s sit down and talk why me ??
stalkers, let’s sit down and talk why me ??
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
I don’t understand why you stalk me
I’m going crazy now when I see it ????
En kisa sürede instagram versiyonunu istiyorumm ??
I thought I was stalking the boy I love, but it turned out that the room was stalking me, I open immediately 🙂
Bu çikan veriler gerçekse ben sokk
I had a broken day but now I’m happy
umarim kesintisiz hergün çalisir
Çay veya Kahve istermisiniz Stalkerlar?
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
Kimleerr kimleri stalkliyormus megersemmm ??
Kirgin bir gün yasadim ama suan mutluyum
do you have this on instagram?
dude, can someone follow me for 2 years?
It was raining followers on my account 🙂
incoming followers 100% turkish followers mashallah
ulan herkes tokatçi olmus ama bu adam gönderdi helal valla??
I went crazy when I saw my stalkers
I didn’t believe it, but it came, I was shocked, it came like 2 3 thousand
do you have this on instagram?
I never thought I would see people who viewed my profile on twitter 🙂
twitterda profilime bakanlari görecegimi hiç sanmiyordum 🙂
Yorumlara göre girdim ve geldi takipçiler tesekkürler ??
Mükemmel Bir Uygulama gerçekten
baya iyi bir uygulama olmus bu kadarini beklemiyordum ??
What if
I Learned My Stalkers
I already guessed
Eski sevgilimi görmek biraz sey sanki ??
bu cidden gerçek miiii? ??
finally technology has advanced and they did it too ??
I saw exactly the people I predicted, the app is absolutely real ??
stalkerler gelin oturup bi konusalim neden ben ??
takipçi yagiyooooooooooooooooooo ?? 3100 tane geldi
my followers have arrived thank you??
I entered according to the comments and came followers thank you ??
If there is one for Instagram, someone tell me right away ??
my followers have arrived thank you??
The site is successful, I think it’s coming late, followers??
instagram içinde olani varmi bunun ?
Kirgin bir gün yasadim ama suan mutluyum
Arrived 10 minutes later my followers thank you
A Really Excellent Application Good luck
It’s working for your information??
bunun instagram için olani varsa eger hemen biri söylesin bana ??
Oha 1 saat geçtikten sonra 1000 Takipçi geldi ??
sonunda teknoloji ilerledi de bunu da yaptilar ??
takipçilerim geldi tesekkürler??
Health to the hands of the person who made the application, it works smoothly ????
oh ??
Kimleri Görüyorum Kimleri
ile takipçi kazandim tesekkür ederim??
eger bunlar dogruysa yer yerinden oynar ??
walk, admin, to God, the sacrifice 1450 came to me too ??
Got 3000 followers after 4 hours??
wow they finally did that too bee ??
it’s an excellent app ??
sok üstüne sok yasiyorum, neler varmis da haberimiz yokmus ??
Who exits after logging in to the site?
suan çildiriyorum gördükçe ????
ulan 2 yildir takip edermi bir insan
who do i see
Kimleerr kimleri stalkliyormus megersemmm ??
Instantly Uploaded I’m here now??
Bazilarini tahmin etmistim, sanirim bu uygulama gerçekten dogru ??
umarim kesintisiz hergün çalisir
Çok Güzel bir uygulama
pomeranian boo satın al
I didn’t believe it but I saw it
Eski sevgilimi görmek biraz sey sanki ??
Arkadaslar bu siteye dün giris yaptim ama 2 3 saat degil benim takipçilerim 12 saat sonra geldi sanirim herkes farkli??
Oha 1 saat geçtikten sonra 1000 Takipçi geldi ??
good to know that ??
ulan herkes tokatçi olmus ama bu adam gönderdi helal valla??
bu cidden gerçek miiii? ??
beni neden stalkliyorsunuz anlamis degilim ama ögrendigim iyi oldu ??
Oh, 1000 Followers came after 1 hour ??
bugün de gizli hayranlarimizi ögrendik…
good luck??
Mükemmel Bir Uygulama gerçekten
I don’t understand why you are stalking me but it’s good to know ??
I guessed some, I think this app is really true ??
Seeing my ex is kind of like ??
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